Work is boring…
Well it’s been a while since my last update. I’ve been inundated with work for the past few days. I really shouldn’t leave my work to the last minute. :/
I’ve been having some sort of procrastination problem for the last few years (or probably my whole life) in that, every time I need to complete a task within a long time frame, I put it of until the very last minute. Well you can say that’s quite normal, since everyone procrastinates. But the problem is, I still do it during the last hours of the deadline. I end up rushing it late at night with me dissatisfied with how it turns out. Every time, I promise myself not to do it and every time it happens.
The moment I receive a task, I think to myself, “I have plenty of time. No need to rush it.” So I attempt to do something the first few days but it usually amounts to nothing as I am dissatisfied with it or it is too little to be considered progress. I then get distracted with other tasks and procrastination over most of the time frame. I keep thinking that I have heaps of time. So when the last few days come, I finally try and put some effort into it. The progress then is still small. I always feel that I’m not in the ‘mood’ to do it and that perhaps the next day, I will have more motivation. This is why I haven’t really finished something a day or more ahead of its due date. It is then the last day I start doing a lot of work. Most of the work goes without planning and I even use the earlier work as there is no time to redo. I even get distracted then. It is then, very late into the night (or even early morning), I finish most of my work. I still leave some of it to the last minute, literally. 
I guess I’m some sort of wannabe perfectionist. Everything I do, I don’t think its ‘right’ so I redo or leave later. It is only then, near the end, when I have no choice, I make progress.
I always say to myself it will be done better next time but it doesn’t happen.
I believe the problem comes in my motivation and my distractions. The distractions are the easy part. I’ve limited them to two; computer and music.
Everything I do on the computer always leads me to wander off into the net or mucking around with my settings. I almost never play games to procrastinate so my distraction is both unfulfilled and time wasting. I can work on other computers, like at the library, as they seem designed for work whereas my PC seems more for fun. All I have to do is to do all my work on writing and use library computers when I need to.
I wish music was not a distraction. I think I am one of the very few who can’t work and listen to music at the same time. I always tend to listen to it actively and stop all my work. It feels as if I need to do it to enjoy it properly or it doesn’t make me concentrate well. Sometimes I can work with it well but it is a bit of a hit and miss. If I listen to music with others, I can work like the reason above with computers. I don’t really have a MP3 player so the problem is not a prevalent.
So I guess all I have to do is to keep myself away from these distractions. Sounds easy doesn’t it?
I don’t know what to do with motivation. I find myself working better at night when even one is asleep and I feel more alive. I think if I remove my distractions, my motivation will soon come as a discipline.
So I guess this is my new (year) resolution. I hope I can pull this of as this year is quite important to me.
PS: I just noticed that I had some visitors! Either that, or it was me viewing my page multiple times. Anyway, thanks for popping by! Hope you enjoy the stay.
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